rejection... sob sob

today i just wanna fast forward to my sms conversation with her.....

me: " wei, interested in meeting me for dinner tonight? give u a big treat i owe u very long le!"

she: "huh! now then u tell me. i very lazy to go out. and you goin back school also. save some money also go home eat"

me: "aiyah nvm la at most i come back office pick u up lor. i still got some unfinished work"

she still rem i need to go airport to pick up FY but i told her someone picking her up le. i complained to her that it's was the first time i give pple treat still must spend so much effort to persuade haha. her reply..?? ya lor i am like tat!... argh.... vomit blood.... but cute haha... i sweet talk her a little and she replied me " huh.. i am taken in by honey words!" WAH!!! i tot i suceeded le still ask her think of place to go eat. but her reply really turn off man she still insist strongly that she doesnt want to go out. finally i am abit pissed off le i replied her " No comments! roar!"

abit regret what i sms her so later i find a chance to msg her to ask for my IA prof's office number. after replying me, i purposely disturb her by askign her out again,,, wah at least she bothered to reply me so not that bad la... then i intentionally remind her the promise she made to me hehehehe... next week must find a chance to use.

so the question now is..... why's she so reluctant to go out with me? just a simple dinner only. a thousand and one thoughts came into my mind. maybe she doesnt really have a good impression of me. i mean if a guy ask a ger out for dinner date i guess she will be more than willing to go plus i think i put in some effort to persuade le lor... i hope she's really tired... i hope she's really dun like those last min plans type of pple.... as the day comes nearer.... i cannot help but wonder my chances are diminishing..... somebody pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee help!!

6 more days....minimal progress

this morning i forgot to change my nerd nerd glasses before meeting them... i fell asleep in my goo while waiting for them.... S and C commented on my glasses when they board my goo. haha i quickly realise it and change back to my "cool" glasses... SHE must have noticed my ugly glasses... haiz.... SHE saw the ugly side of me le...but she has a pair too haha..... arent we compatible haha....

SHE then told me she will be going to the airport after work thus not taking my car. but I will be going out too so no difference haha. C and S are creating alot of commotion as both of them are sitting behind while the 2 of us sitting in-front are cluesless what's going on haha...

i asked her if she has ever driven a manual car. she did not and also doesnt wanna try. i tink to her auto cars are just stepping on the accelerator and go so she does not need to think of the clutch and gears. haha gers are gers.... i told her my sis also like that and my bro doesnt allow her to drive his car haha... even told her the horror experience when i took the car from their house to my house..... haha...we chatted abt cars again... she commented that the Mazada CX7 is nice and also the toyota Harrier. she also thinks that the smaller toyota Rush is sufficient for her if she does not have a family haha.. woah... so fast tink so far le....

so fast reach office le.... thats abt our contact today... nearing 530pm.. suddenly received from her... she told me some engineers are chasing my slides... but i sent le..... i told her i will re-send. after dropping S and C at sk, i called her again. actually i know what's going on.... just wanna hear her voice again... haiz.. i am hopeless.....

i guess there isnt any progress...? i must act.... i must act..... running out of time.....

7th day... and i began to wonder

haiz today didnt really talk much to HER although i send HER home. this morning SHE went to the university to look for her fyp prof.... turns out that the prof is my IA prof.. what a coincidence. I wish her good luck in the morning... added many lines... but only got a 1 word reply... "Thanks".... haiz turn off man... didnt msg her the whole day.
when returning home... i dropped C at sk. then i was alone with her le. we began to talk a little abt work then change into the topic where she told me her boss and ST's boss wanna bring them to buffet next thurs. she was scared as she doesnt speak with her boss. haha.. she always stress that " BUT I AM A GER!" haha.... then i told her i am quite okay with the engineers in my group maybe because all of us are guys.
she then told me that she maybe wanna go TCC at airport tomorrow as her daddy is coming back from working trip.. haha i suddenly rem FY ask me to ask her what's nice at TCC. she told me she like the "PERFECT MATCH!". i told her abt my "experience" at TCC.... the minty mocha... blah blah blah.... haha sometimes i wonder if she's listening to what i am saying.... she looks like in a world of her own....... hopefully she's not angry that i commented on her TCC bah haha....
we saw a audi suv on the road... she suddenly told me that she would want to buy a SUV as her family car in future as SUV.. to quote her "make a perfect family car"... haha really rich ger ger.
she suddenly ask me abt her perfume.... she say that maybe her perfume with the moisturiser make the scent stronger... even her "tall" engineer can smell.... and she told me that she's quite "close" to her "tall" engineer now wah kaoz... then is she close to me??? haiz.....

haiz... sometimes i wonder what am i goin to do?? send her home?? pick her from KT? but all these opportunities are going to end soon.. what am i going to do?? she already ask me out for dinner but i was reluctant... what am i waiting for? the fear of rejection? maybe lor but what can i do?? how should i hint her?? i really hate this man.

"the jerk"

today was the longest time we spend together in my car. S is sick and C drove his own car. i couldnt really recall what transpired between us in the morning journey to work but i vaguely rem SHE telling me that she wanna change her tokyo trip to hong kong. i was wondering why she wanna go hong kong again since she just went last month haha. she als0 send me her slides and i helped her do some minor editing. think we exchanged quite a fair bit of sms today. i even helped her call the airline call centre but dunno why kena cut off... so much for the BEST airline in the world haha.
i drove HER home because i was going to teach tuition. it was on the way back that our conversation is interesting. i actually wanted to change my car radio to an english station but she told me that she actually listen to chinese station more. i was suprised. then she ask me she izzit she look like malay thats why i assume she listen to english station..?? my goodness. who dare say her that i beat him/her up ar!!! then i ask izzit because she's tanned thats why pple will say so. then we drifted to the topic of CCA. suprise suprise suprise... she's in library when in sec school and join the life-guard when in poly. she told me how tough her training was.... how she push her physical limits.. rope burns... push ups.... i cannot imagine what she has gone through.... i ask her why she wanna torture herself??? then came the answer.... her ex.
the funny thing was.... she call him a jerk! haha.... that idiot muz have done alot of things to hurt her. i feel heart pain for her. she say that she always buy things for him and even came out with her on valentine's day so that he can "con" her a mobile haha... haiz those were the days... young ger ger kena cheated.....
then i told her abt ms. told her why i was so dejected yeterday.... then she began to get the picture...... we really share alot about our past relationship..... izzit another step forward...? i dunnoe.... but one thing's for sure... i tink she's quite close to her "tall" engineer as well..!! feel threatened... haha

25 May 2009 ------- Sad n Happy day

today marks the start of the 10 day countdown to the end of the internship. everyone seems to be very happy to be able to get out of this place, especially HER. is this place really that bad?? today FY oso went to penang for her working trip... but will be back by friday le.....
this morning i was damn tired... SHE noticed it... actually i tink it was because i forgot to say goodbye to HER in the morning before going up to office. at around 9plus... SHE suddenly msg me:

SHE: "hey u alright? u dun seem to be urself this morning."

wah.... happy like toad.... SHE msg me leh..... i tink it's really the first time SHE took the initiative to msg me lor

me: "nah i am ok. do i look very down? did i drive recklessly this morning? sorry was thinking of some thorny issues"

SHE: "No la. you are just seem abit quiet. A bit not yourself. Gers are very sensitive to surroundings! but thanks for waiting then i no need to waste my cab fare again!"

wah SHE has been noticing me....heart beat faster haha......

me: "hummp u implying i am to noisy right.... ok lor then from now on i keep quiet haha think the money i helped u save can ask u treat me lobster and abalone liao le"

SHE: "ok can. this two weeks when u want after work when u wan tell me."

me: "aiyoh just joking la. i still owe u big treat. ur teeth haven recover right? this 2 weeks abit maybe cannot. i got no mood oso wanna settle some stuffs first before i can eat my sumptuous food in peace. we go out for food after the IA before ur tokyo trip bah... unless u dun know me after IA le then thats too bad haha"

SHE: "recover le. we can go out eat but we must go dutch!"

me: "aiyoh. how can u be a shrewed ger when u reject someone's offer to treat u good food? haha really doubt ur own's assessment of your character!"

after that she change topic le but i am quite pleased with what has happened today! progress again... yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

the day SHE ask me how I think abt HER

it was just the day after i printed the report for her. I drove her home, only both of us around hehe. suddenly she ask me THAT question. hmm... how i think about her? how to tell her??? tell her that she's really really really very cute??? tell her that i am nuts over her? hahaha.... i was flabberglassed for a moment.

then she tell me why she ask me the question. her "tall" engineer told her that she's someone that will want her views to be heard.

actually to me, most of us would want our views to be heard unless you are really really shy. it's perfectly normal. however, i got a feeling that her "tall" engineer are really putting words in a very nice way. i think that he's trying to say :" YOU ARE A SPOILT GER!"

sometimes i think that she's really a little spoilt bah. maybe because HER family only got HER sis and HER, so both are gals naturally the parents will pamper them more. plus her family shd be considered the middle-upper class.... that make her a prime candidate to be a "spolit" ger haha. but these are small issues.... other than that to me SHE's PERFECT haha.

i told her something else. i say i think she's the type of person that is very concern abt what others think abt her. thsi is really something else that i observed. from last time she complain to me that pple dun wanna tell her instructions directly...her feels inferior to her fellow intern which is more technically inclined to the CAD software.... till recently pple nv tell her abt fire drills etc etc... small things to others but quite a big issue to her....

of course i put it in a very nice way la..... i say this good and bad. i told her that sometimes people talk and they dun think. so sometimes she may mis-interprete the meaning the other party's intention when certain words are said... and i also kao pei her abt the 80gsm paper thingy haha.. both of us have a good laugh......

it turn out that she didnt ask our fellow frens abt what they think of her. she only asked me. does that mean that my words carry weight...?? hehehehehe i hope so.....

Printing of Report

It began when i sms her abt my "sucky"interview... i actually thought that she will ask me how's my interview... but suddenly she told me that she need to go printing shop to print her report because there are some changes. what follows is very interesting haha.....

me: "I print for you la, dun waste money at ur printing shop. i uses pirated ink so quite cheap".

SHE: "Do u use laser printer?"

me: "No, i use inkjet. But the quality are quite good and i sometimes use to print my own photos".

SHE: "Some part of my report is quite "inky", I went to my cousin's place that day and realise that it uses quite alot of ink. and I am a very FUSSY. I want to use 80gsm paper."

me: "Ink wise it's not really an issue cos i use pirated ink. Dun think your pictures uses more ink than my photos right? and i uses 80gsm paper too. bought it for my fyp haha. Any more request, ms fussy ger?"

SHE: "Ok I will pay you back. Will send you within 30 minutes."

SHE's really funny right haha..... really got such request. ... but ok la, she's opening up to me... at least i feel so hahaha